DESIRE

Name of this article is same as the name of my blog because it is the "DESIRE" in the true sense.DESIRE to "BREATH" free. "BREATH" free not because of  "POLLUTION" but to "BREATH" free from the "STRANGULATIONS" not from the society BUT from all those whose little motivation for things that i have been doing would have helped me to go more and more ahead in life. It's not their "MATURITY" which they have shown in my life but i think its their "IMMATURITY".

I wish it would have been other way round. I sometimes laugh it out so hard and sometimes i do cry. In a dark room i'm tied with no ray of hopes of light. It's feels  like the walls of the room are the "MIRRORS". and "THE MORE I CRY THE MORE THEY LAUGH ON ME". 

POEM TO CONCLUDE:-

"DESIRE" (ENGLISH NAME TO AN HINDI POEM):-

AB TOH JEENE KI TAMANNA 

KAHIN KHO SI GAYI HAI

THI JINSE UMEED THODI

WO BHI TUT CHUKI HAI

HOON HATASH MEIN ITNA 

KI KISE CHAL PAUNGA

IN PATHRILE RAASTO KO

KAISE PAAR KAR PAUNGA

DAB GAYA HOON MEIN ITNA

KI AB NA UTH PAUNGA

SOCHTA HOON KI KYA KABHI 

MEIN FIR SE JI PAUNGA????????

NOTE:------ IT'S NOT ABOUT ME. BUT IT'S ABOUT SOME ONE FROM MY "GROUP"

I WANT TO BE FREE

I want to be free,

From the things that have caught hold of me,

I want to be free,

From the things that control me,

I want to be free,

Because i wanna know

How it feels to be free,

To fly like a bird,

Into the sky and above the deep blue sea,

I want to be free and break these chains,

Which are tied on me,

But the more i try,

The more it takes over me,

I WANT TO BE FREE

WOH PAL

Badal gayi hai zindagi,

badal gaye yeh hum,

dur ho gaye hein yaar apne,

na saath hai koi ab,

aankhein band kare

toh woh pal h yaad aate,

kaash us daur mein hum,

wapis ja pate,

school ki chutti hote hi sab ke saath bhagna,

piche reh jata koi toh sab ka saath mein ruk jaana,

thi fikar tab hume apne un yaaro ki,

tut na jaye yeh dosti kabhi apni

aankhein band kare

toh woh pal h yaad aate,

kaash us daur mein hum,

wapis ja pate,

bus stop p khade ho k ladkio p line marna,

aur fir dosto ka humpar comments aana,

apne crush k saamane se yun has k guzar jana,

dosto ka piche se bhabhi bhabhi chilanna,

aankhein band kare

toh woh pal h yaad aate,

kaash us daur mein hum,

wapis ja pate,

ZINDAGI

Anjaan hoon mein,

nadaan hoon mein,

bkhabar is bheed mein,

pareshaan hoon mein,

kuch paane ki chah mein,

aage badh chala hoon mein,

gum hoon mein is kohre mein,

girta hoon sambhalta hoon aur fir,

chal padta hoon,

bekhauf is dagar mein,

kahin bujh na jaun mein,

in behati hawao mein,

kahin dab na jaun mein,

in leharo ki panaah mein,

UNSUNI

Unsuni as the title means-“UNHEARD”. That is it is Unheard of the words being spoken, either of pains or miseries or of wins and glories by the one who are meant nothing. Whatever they say it’s all buried under the ground because who are they – NOTHING. That is nothing in the world of grown ups. Grown up with selfishness, their own happiness no care for others…..

Of the lost souls,

In this rage,

We live in a fear,

That we are going down,

So suppressed-

That no one hears

We have lost,

What we deserved….

THE CROSS ROAD....

somewhere deep inside i feel,

i'm not who i wanted to b,

i go blank wen sm1 asks,

wot do u do nd wot u want to b??

i feel scared nd sad wen i c my lyf so ruined

i let it happen, cuz i;m a puppet n they cntrl m,

i ve to do things they say,

coz i've to nt cuz i want to,

but i cant cntrl it as it is in my destiny,

they c themself in m,

they want to fulfil their dreams thru me,

will some1 juz let m breathe?

dying from suffocation,

its lyk m living in a cage

i m an animal n i'm their prey,

my wings r cut so that i cant fly,

i'll b their slave nd wag my tail,

grant me a wish and i'll set myself free,

i want to xperience wot i am and wot i can be,

i'v not done anything wrong to you, dont punish me please,

i've a request from you, i've a life i've a dream,

if you cant support me,

then dont stop me to live my dream

IF I COULD GO BACK IN LIFE....

We keep thinking about our past, basically regretting over the mistakes which we have done, that has affected our present and have certainly made us re think about our future decisions.Many a times we take decision in a hasty manner to fulfill our short term dreams rather than looking out for long term achievements. This is a main problem with the people today, they take short cuts without thinking how much it will affect them in the long run.

Having covered 19 years of my life I sometimes re-think about those short-short moments where I went careless and had to pay heavily for that. It is very common with the teenagers. I sometimes think If god had given us a chance where in we could go back in our life and redo the things where we went wrong out of sheer excitement of doing something new or to outclass others and at the end we failed because we lacked the calmness with whose help others walked by in the road for success and we ended up struggling

Fallen back so much I don’t know where my companions went away with the glory. They got all the success, recognition for which, I craved for. Depressed so much, I just wished if god could show his mercy on me and could give me a single chance to go back in life to correct my mistakes and to get a base from where I could start afresh and don’t repeat the mistakes. But life is merciless it doesn’t give a new chance to any one it’s a trap which we create for our self and later on we get so much entangled in it that we cant exit from there and we end up paying hugely for the small mistakes

We should never do anything hastily because there are many lives that are connected with us, who expect a lot from us, and even if we can’t give them everything we should try giving them at least 50% of what they expect, as the rest will come with the recognition and confidence which we gained by doing half of the work.done. We cannot escape what we are doing we have to bear the result in the future all alone.

I’ m also one out of many who are facing the wrath of life today and I can’ t escape it no matter how much I try. I have entangled my self and there is no exit left for me. I too think that I could get the chance of reversing the time of my life waiting for a single chance to re live those moments again which were important for me and I just let them slip out of my hands, to correct those mistakes and tell my friends that I’ m not a looser and can’ t stand head to head with you I know once I was weak because I had lost the
directions of my life but now I’ m back ready to give you a tough fight and prove every one that I’ m not a looser who can’ t face the world I know that earlier I was raw but now I’ m fully developed and ready to stand on my own feet