I wish I had one more chance to ......................................................

This is for wishlist Wednesday….. prompt by preeti shenoy

I waited for Wishlist Wednesday every week thinking of writing something on each of them but somehow I could not write. Those topics were out of my league. But thank you Preeti mam, I sincerely feel that you chose this prompt keeping me in mind (haha)

People commit so many mistakes in life unknowingly and sometimes knowingly and I am one of them. I have made many mistakes and I definitely need one chance to change them and they are:

1.       I need one more chance to live my childhood again: - yes i need one more chance to live my childhood again. I wanted to go back to that time when those things happened with me and I didnt turn out to be strong. This time I want to be strong from the start and for that I need my childhood.

2.       I need one more chance to be a good son: - yeah I need one more chance to be a good son. I want to prove that yes I’m can be good son to you both and not a toy so that you can play with. To give them a single reason to be proud of and not a reason to be ashamed off.

3.        I need one chance to be a good friend: - yes I am your good friend and I want to prove that. I have made many mistakes which I never wanted too. I want that one chance to prove it you.

4.       I need one chance to be loved, cared and not to be an option for anyone : - I want one chance where people are real with me and love me, care for me and stay with me for ever and not come to me at the time when they need me. There can be a situation where I need them so be with me for ever and help me in my struggle without me asking for anything.

5.       I need one chance to live: - yes I need one chance to live. Yesterday only I was thinking what I’m missing in life. I’m actually missing my whole life. The emptiness does not leaves.

I need one chance for so many things in life. I’m still living and carrying on with a hope to stable myself and finding so many things about myself and hoping that need for one last chance ends  somewhere down the line.

Thank you Preeti for this prompt. Yesterday I was thinking of speaking my heart out to someone I don’t know so that I won’t be judged and today you gave  me that chance